New Years Resolution, Live in Joy

2008 is coming to a close. I have decided this year that I am going to make a resolution. You see, I've always thought New Years Resolutions were silly, why not start them at any time of the year instead of waiting until January 1st? I guess I do still feel that way, but it just so happens that I've decided to change my life, now...and it happens to be the end of 2008 and beginning of 2009.

My resolution is to simply live my life in Joy! What a concept! I will miss my pity sessions and I will certainly miss my "who is me's." Many that know me, do not know that my childhood was very difficult. Those that do know, marvel at how I made it through it. That childhood was filled with sexual abuse, a torn apart family and a little child living in survival mode, trying to make everyone, everywhere happy..that is until I hit adolescence and then I was focused on only myself..searching for happiness in all the wrong places. I've been beat, I've been abandoned, stranded, alone, poor and in the throes of depression. The roads I have chosen have always been the difficult roads to travel. But you know what? I've also learned this:

• Just how strong I am. I've learned that I can look fear in the face and laugh, I can say, "Is that all you got?"
• I've learned to steal the moments of happiness and savor them like a fine bit of chocolate melting on a tongue.
• I've learned to try new things in my life with delicious abandon so to speak. I do not stop and worry if I'll fail..I just trudge ahead full speed. What is the worst that can happen? I've been through the depths of hell and survived so now I am not afraid to...try!
• I've learned that most things in life work it's self out in the long run for the higher good. I look back at the saddest of times, and realize that something did come out of it later that improved my life in some way or fashion.
• I've learned that prayer works. Yes, I am psychic, and yes I am Christian and believe in the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit. I know prayer works, because I've prayed so much in my life and was sustained by that act of faith.
• I've witnessed miracles, many miracles that have no other explanation. I've had a child born circumsized after prayer, money materialize it thin air...blowing in the breeze and many many other "coincidences."
• I've learned to love myself. No matter my size, no matter what is going on in my life, I love myself. I have had 8 surgeries of various nature, my body has a tendency of breaking down, needing tune ups. I live in pain from spinal degeneration and a birth defect in my hip joints... but I love my body..it slows me down and reminds me to sit and smell the flowers.

The first step in joy, is to release the past by loving it! I got this from my favorite book by Sanaya Roman...Living In Joy. This book will tell you that when you have a bad memory, stop and think hard..what did you learn from this? You see, the Universe, or even your parents working on behalf of the Universe puts obstacles in your way. These obstacles develop your strength and your inner will. What a concept! Just as a body builder uses the counterforce of weights to build muscles, we use the unpleasant times of our life to strengthen our character. I must really be strong!

So for now, instead of looking at the single happenings in your life that bring you tears, look at the big picture! Dry the tears, gather your strength and instead of crying, of cursing those who are making your life difficult...thank the Universe, thank God and bless that person. Spreak Joy so that an abundance of Joy comes back to you!

I remember, one time when I was very small. I was at my father's and my stepmother's home. I always heard stories of how my brother would run away. He would go to his grandmothers up the road, drink a cup of coffee. They could always find him there. I guess he was 6 at the time. But the point is, the stories always were in laughter, of how cute that memory was. Well, one day...I thought I just couldn't take it anymore. I probably was simply told "no" and that infuriated me. I had a whole set of children's luggage. (I went back and forth for visitation, my parents were divorced). One morning, bright and early, I packed my bags. I packed everything I thought I would need to get me through in life. All my favorite toys, my dolls and their clothing. My goodness, I didn't think about clothing for myself, food or money! I slipped out and began to walk down our lonely country road, dragging these suitcases behind me. Well, would you just know that my brother spotted me and ran to tell on me? I heard hooping and hollering and my stepmother coming down the road with a switch!! I'd been had....I was in big trouble! I got a switching, it really stung my legs.

I was very angry for the longest time, not because I got a switching, but because I didn't get those laughing, loving stories of how I run away. For many years I focused in on the differences between my brother and I. How silly! Because now I know that that day taught me the most valuable lesson of my life... No matter how hard life gets, no matter what is thrown on you, and how hard you want to give up. YOU DO NOT RUN AWAY! I haven't run away since. Oh, and I also learned that there are more important things than my toys!

Free Pain Reliever!

A great pain reliever is reflexology! I decided to put up the hand charts for you today because you can do the massages on yourself anywhere without bringing too much attention to yourself.

There are 2500 nerve endings in the hand and 7200 nerve endings in the foot. Yes, the foot gives you far better results, but it is frowned upon to pull off your stinky sneakers at the local restaurant when you need a little emergency treatment! Not that I've done that... (t.he people next to you start unexplainably gagging, whimps!)

When you stimulate your hands, over these points, your brain will respond by producing endorphins, natures pain relievers! Your blood and nerve suppy are improved, muscle spasms are relaxed, your body will release toxins and impurities that cause disease.

In China, reflexology is used on diabetics to reduce insulin levels, to improve blood supply levels to legs and feet and improve circulation.

In Denmark reflexology is used on asthma patients to improve breathing and to relax the body during asthma attacks.

Australia ans South Africa uses reflexology to reduce urination in bedwetters.

Switzerland uses reflexology in terminal cancer patients for relaxation and pain control.

This may be a no cost solution for you, give it a try!

My Third Eye On You!

Just as a bodybuilder will continue to exercise and continue to improve his physique, a psychic continues to exercise the mind. Precisely we exercise our third eye. The third eye is located in the middle of the forehead. When we activate our third eye, we begin to get visual information, like movies, like flashes, it is varied according to the person. You see, psychic readings do not stop at the momentary reading. There is a psychic delay and additional information continues to come throughout the evening especially when the third eye is activated.

One of the best gemstones for a psychic to use is Magnesite. Magnesite is frequently white, but comes also in shades of gray, yellow or brown. This is the most powerful stone to activate the third eye, the crystalline stone is far more powerful as pictured above.

During meditation, place this stone over the middle of your forehead. In psychics, waking dreams, and little movies will begin. You will receive the "knowing", information that appears that burns itself in your soul. Magnesite also connects you to the Akashic records and the information contained in your soul group. This will assist you in healing of others from residual past life actios.

For those people that are stuck in grief, or stuck in negativity of the past, meditate with this on your forehead as well. The cloud of inaccuracy will be lifted, the stress will be reduced and your mind will begin to "hear" your heart.

Activating your third eye can be done this way. Before sleep, when you are restful and calm, with your eyes shut, raise your eyes to look up to the middle of the forehead. (with your eyes shut remember) You will begin to see colors, lights. Just relax and be a spectator of those lights and colors and eventually you will see people or scenes. What you see is information, memories of lives past or guides. If you do see someone, ask who this person is. You will know if this is a guide, and if it is deemed important for you, a name will be given. When a new guide comes in for me, I will see the name written in stone. Because I had had many different guides, it is imperative that I have a name to tell them apart and their function. Guides only stay as long as their task requires. New guides come in for different phases in your life. I have one gatekeeper guide that stays with me, one guardian angel and now I have another guide that helps me with validations. You also receive guides when you become a Reiki practitioner. It isn't necessary to know the names of your Reiki guides. They come in and help you with hand placement.

Joy

Living with Joy, this is a book by Sanaya Roman that I continue to read and learn from. One of the great chapters says that "Giving thanks and appreciation opens many doors into the higher levels of the Universe." I'm all for opening those doors!

It's not easy in this day and age to keep your joy. Everywhere you turn, you here bad news, those around you focus on what is uncomfortable in their lives and to stay in your joy bubble is a mighty feat. How do we keep joy? We keep joy by thanking our cells for the good job that they do, even when we are sick. We keep joy by thanking the Universe for that ray of sunshine that you saw today, or the birds that are on your lawn looking for that perfect little wormy. By giving thanks, by expressing our gratitude, the Universe responds by giving us additional blessings, joy and focus toward our higher good.

We stop relying on others around us to lead us to success, we begin by trusting our soul, by calling on our guides to show us where we will do the earth the greatest good, thereby bringing joy. What is it that you love to do? If you didn't have to work, and could live the rest of your days doing something you love, what would that be? Chances are you can find those lessons in your hobbies, in the interest that keep you consumed so deeply that you do not realize that hours have passed. You can pass joy to others in those lessons.

The trick is, when you call on the knowledge of the Universe and ask for something great to come into your life, you must remember to not think in your limited ways. You shouldn't ask for "so and so" to love you more, you shouldn't ask to make big money at your job that you have went to for years. The requests that should be made is for the Universe to bring you joy and abundant love, bountiful resources to bring joy into your life and the life of others. Miraculous wonders begin to appear. Now, the more that you thank the Universe for your miracles, the more miracles that you receive.

With that, I've decided to begin to air my gratitude in simple ways. Today Universe, thank you for showing me abundant and unconditional love. I decided to go outside to get some air, literally...asthma..get some air. You must understand that we live deep in the woods, surrounded by beautiful trees. The air was cool, there was a slight breeze blowing, bringing me such fresh, fresh lovely air! I stood up and took a deep breathe of that life giving force when I felt something pressing against my legs. It was my husbands outside dog, Baily. Baily looked up at me with those big brown eyes, and I heard her say I love you. All she wanted was for me to pat her head and say a few words. She didn't care that I didn't have a bit of make up on, that I had an old lady pair of black shorts on and a puke green shirt. All she wanted to do was to give me love. Thank you Universe.

Later we went into town to get a movie. The owner of the store just turned 59 years old and has been married for 39 years. I know this because my husband had announced that we have been together for 34 years and that sparked a conversation. She began to talk of when her husband and her met in high school, how they would sneak off and park and lived dangerously in their day for the sake of love. I looked over at my husband and remembered the times we risked everything just to see each other. Thank you Universe for reminding me of that flutter in my stomach when he drove up to my home.

Our realities are exactly what we choose them to be. We can choose to cry over our lack of money, the state of politics, the unpaid bills and family woes and then risk more of the same to be attracted to us. I'd rather choose to notice that little bird struggling with that worm, flying off to it's nest chirping all the way, leaving me one of it's precious feathers in flight to remind me that we can soar as high as we aspire to, if we look for joy.

A Beautiful Day to Be Alive

I've been sick for the last 3 weeks. On September 29th, which happens to be my anniversary (34 years illegally and 26 yearls legally) I spent my day in town waiting to be fitted into my busy doctor's schedule.

It was going to be 3 hours until I could get in, I had another appointment that morning, and it is an hour drive home..so I decided to spend my time in town. Not an easy feat considering I was so ill with asthma and bronchitis. I decided to go to the library.

It was here that I had settled in a light and airy corner of the library right underneath a series of huge windows. The view was the various campus shops and students milling about. This particular day, I was pretty down spiritually. You see, I've always had issues with my lungs, and fears of drowning, fears of not being able to breathe. I understand of course that this course is a karmic one, something to work out from a previous life of drounding. Easier said than done!

I've just completed my third level of Reiki, very excited to begin my journey in the future of teaching, but before that can happen, I have some issues to deal with, namely the karmic issue. I will be working on sending the Reiki back to access the Akashic records, to heal this left over annoyance of my existence. That Saturday I had attended our monthly Reiki Share, receiving energy as well as giving it. My Reiki before the class prevented any coughing or breathing issues for that two hours. So this is where the issue comes in. Why wasn't the Reiki taking this issue from me? It should be gone. This was going to be a bumpy road to access the solutions.

So sitting there, looking out the window, feeling sorry for myself and pondering what I am to do next in this big show called life, my attention was drawn to this man that was sitting next to me.

This gentleman was clearly homeless, dissheveled, not clean, and a few bags with his contents beside him. In his arms were books on religion, blessings and other uplifting titles. He clearly was a Baptist or curious about subject according to the first book in his lap. I wondered about his life, what brought him to his predicament. I wondered if he had family, if he had any contact with those who loves him. I wondered how many people were disdainful of him, condescending and thoughtless. I wondered what I could say to him to make his day brighter.

At that moment, his eyes met mine as he stood up and looked out of the window. He had such a smile come over his face as he looked at me and said hello. I said hello.

"Isn't it a wonderful day to be alive?" As our eyes met for a second time, I then understood. Yes it was a wonderful day to be alive, what else is there? You find angels in curious places, your messages in life come to you when you least expect it.

My Soul

I’m coming out of a transition period. You can recognize a spiritual rise to a new level by the subtle or not so subtle feelings of unrest. It is said that this is the time when your guides are re-arranging your furniture.

What I have been working on lately spiritually is “Soul Work,” getting to know my soul, trying to display the unconditional love our soul possesses, and accepting the paths that was contracted by my soul when it chose my body vessel.

A extraordinary book, “Soul Love by Sanaya Roman” is loaded with beautiful prose, and exercises to get in touch with your soul, to merge with your soul and access that information. You might wonder about the merging statement, because you think that you are your soul. We have our bodies and we have our souls, two different things. Our souls hold the key to our life paths and the lessons that we are to learn.

During a visualization technique I was able to see a temple and there were forms coming into the temple. The forms were dark and this distressed me at first, as I was expecting to see golden light surrounding souls. The next night as I went into meditation, I specifically asked my soul about the dark forms. I was given that these souls were returning from their lives on earth. Living a life on earth is hard, it expends the soul energy. The return home requires a regeneration process in the temple after reuniting with others in their soul group. I found this fascinating.

My Wake Up Call

I have scoured the internet looking for others that had a NDE (near death experience) that resembled mine and couldn’t find one. I didn’t see a tunnel with a light at the end, I didn’t have family with outstretched arms, and I was immediately in a meeting.

One year, our family was overrun with tragedy. It seemed as if every other month there was someone that would fall ill and pass on. My father had lost his wife, mother in law, sister, brother, in addition I had lost two uncles and a nephew on my husband’s side. It was an incredible year of emotion and questioning.

My psychic gifts had presented itself from a small child, but during my early 40’s, I had consciously decided to push that information into the background and live my life differently. Little did I know that I was not being true to my destiny I was shown in a big way.

How That Frightened Me!

Shortly after I had decided that I would take an alternative road, I had gone on a religious retreat. We would be in prayer with “prayer warriors” every day, multiple times, and on this last day, I would be holding hands in a prayer circle with the warrior. After the “Amen”, she turned to me and said, “You are a healer.” I was so perplexed at that point, however it was explained to me that my hands were so very hot, and that showed her that I was to be a healer. Oh, I can not tell you how that frightened me, as I look back on this day; I chuckle because I wasn’t concerned if this meant I would be called to do the seemingly impossible. I was worried about having to pray out loud. Oh my goodness, what a little thing to worry. Consequently this statement was pushed from my mind as I stubbornly looked the other way. That was the beginning of our losses.

Fast forward, my family and I had made it through the losses and now I was to go through a minor outpatient procedure to lesson back pain. During this procedure I was given an epidural, which was to infuse steroids into my spinal canal. The pain was great, as the person doing the procedure must have inserted it too close to a nerve. That was the last thing that I remembered.

In Between Life and Death

I was in a meeting. The table was round and appeared to be dark like wood. The walls were dark as well and there were people around me. I can not describe the people, but my impression was that one person was formed as a male for my earthly benefit. I do know that the people in that room was not happy with me and I had to go back.

I awoke to a flurry; the attendants exclaimed that it took two shots to get my heart rate up from a rate of 25 and dropping. All I said was, “I was in a meeting.” It sounded like a group sing song, because different voices were chiming in with questions on what kind of meeting this was.

My Guides Intervened

This is when my guides began to intervene into my life and steering me back to my roots. I had many lessons to learn. Number one was to make peace with my clairvoyance and empathic nature for my job was to heal through words. I was shown that as a child, not understanding that my secret could be used to help others, I wanted to be a psychologist as I was fascinated by the emotions of others. I wanted to be inside their heads to help them see another way. I understand that need now. Another karmic lesson that I was to be working on was to be stronger, resisting control and regaining my freedom. I was holding on to my previous life as a nun. That life consisted of denying my needs and being a martyr. My early years of my marriage were exactly that, giving all of myself to the extent that I lost myself. I wasn’t taking chances, I had lost my spontaneity and that was the mirror image of my previous life, thus I wasn’t advancing as a soul. I was to help others and regain myself in the process.

So, here I am.